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Monday, February 6, 2012

The Shack

*Sexual content*

Besides having sex with me at the apartment, "K" took me places to "park" in his car but after a while, he was afraid he would get caught. He would make excuses to "S", for why he had to take me somewhere. I didn't care about much of anything anymore. I was pretty numb to it. I bought into a lot of his craziness, I guess. Anything to fit in. Sex was not a big deal anymore, I suppose. There was one place he started to take me frequently, it was located on his grandparents farm.

"K" would take me into their house and talk a while with them, maybe have something to eat. Then he would tell them he wanted to walk the property. They were elderly and I don't think they had any clue what was going on. The first time we went there, we walked through a field towards a long row of trees that divided it from the other fields. There was a little run down shack in the trees. I believe he said the family used it for hunting. We went inside and there were a few shotguns in there. There was a board that was attached to the wall, I guess it was a table or maybe a bed. He'd put me up on there and take my clothes off. I closed my eyes while he did what he wanted. I didn't know what else to do. Just zone out. It's what I always did. Think of something else.  Think of getting drunk later. Pretend you're somewhere else, I felt too dirty, too bad, to be present. He had sex with me pretty much every day. Sometimes more, if he woke up in the middle of the night too.

  After a while, "K" was having one of his younger brothers and his friends to our apartment to party and then when he and "S" bought a house, he'd have parties there too. "S" never liked it but she didn't complain, she had no clue how to leave. He would kill us both, we were all meant to be together, he said. All the guys suspected what was going on with "K" and me but it wasn't talked about. I just knew that they knew but he was the supplier of their alcohol and pot, so I didn't hear anyone say a thing. "K" told me he even went to parties where young girls hung out, I knew he had to be having sex with them too. He even had some legal problems for providing alcohol to minors and the like, but his father seemed to get him out of anything. He knew enough judges and lawyers, so he was pretty much covered.

What scared me the most is how he made a lot of references to a young woman who went missing after a party in our area and whose remains were found in a swamp. It was a huge murder case at the time, making national news. It's still an unsolved case and a very controversial one. Supposedly there was more than one person involved in her disappearance and "K" said, on more than one occasion, that he had information about the case. He knew her. I always was scared that he had something to do with it, considering all the parties he went to and the young girls he met. I never asked. I don't think I wanted to know.


  1. I really don't know whether he said it for shock value or not. I didn't know what to think at all. He was so irrational at times, I just don't know.

  2. I wish I did not have such tunnel vision during the time I knew you. Your courage is inspiring !!!. I will keep you in my prayers. I truely believe God is going to work wonders through you.
    I had to choose annoymous sorry.. This is Phil.
    Are you working on a book as well?